I need to study for my test on Wednesday so if I tell you guys that I will then I will commit to it. I will also put an alarm on my phone. I’ve been watching the Korean drama Oh My Venus. I literally have drama fever, I can’t get up to do anything.
I was looking through my posts and I saw the dramatic change in what I posted. I guess I’ve been going through some tough things these past 6 months. I get a lot of anxiety. But I need to find ways to cure this anxiety. I will post nicer things to not only help me but help you. I feel like I’ve said this a lot but I tend to close myself a lot because I know that others don’t want to listen to my problems. I don’t really have a lot of people to talk to, period.
This will be my way to escape. Wish me luck
It’s funny how different things are when you are in a relationship and when you no longer are. There are those people who are comfortable being alone. I’m not really sure why. Maybe they are too focused on something to have time for any one else even if they like someone. Either way I consider it a good thing. I, on the other hand, feel really lonely all the time. Even when I’m busy I find a way to think about the person I like. It sucks to feel sad every day.
I now have all this extra time and I pay attention and remember the littlest things about everyone. I try to think of God a lot to keep me happy. But it just feels like I’m trying to push through life. It used to feel like I could just prance right through it. My life feels unsatisfying. Even with organizing events and starting up hobbies and going to work for 8 hours. I feel like I’m just trying to hurry up and get through the day. I feel like that everyday. The hobbies and the events help.
I keep hoping that what I’m going through is just withdrawal and that its a transition. I’m hoping that pretty soon I’ll feel happy with my life. They say that if you follow God and read the word you will feel peace and satisfaction.