Even though I have been having problems with the leaders of my church, after attending a meeting with them I realized that they have put a lot of effort into having a lot of people come to their summer camp.

It’s four days and it costs $150. I still am not sure if I want to go because I’m suppose to be saving money. It also means missing a day of work which I have to make sure that someone can cover me.

In the meeting they made it apparent that there are people that are going to be checking out the girls when we wear bathing suits. I have always been self-conscious so I’m going to buy a new bottom and some shorts in case.

Tomorrow I find out if someone can take my shift. I just hope it’s okay that I’m going and that I’m making a good decision.


Trying to organize my life

Life is getting Complicated.

* What do you when the person you trust the most and listens to u is the one you need to break up with? I tried making friends and trusting In others but its just so hard to find that quality in someone.

* I also am terrified that I wont be able to go to school this term. I still have a lot of questions to ask.

* I’m also kind of losing it. I feel like I haven’t found my purpose and without goals my life is a bit meaningless right now. I know that there are people who are like ” don’t say that of course you have a purpose”. Yes, I know I do but I just don’t know what it is. I am feeling really sad all the time for different reasons but I’m trying to enjoy the little things

* It doesn’t help that the leaders of my church are being bad examples an are also causing my confusion.

* I need to place goals and achieve them so that I can survive. I also need to enjoy the little things a little more.


* working on a friend’s wedding

* being the pro at makeup

* Continue learning Korean

* Learn to bake new desserts

* read Tuesdays with Morrie

* Ask questions about Uni

Getting the most out of my Relationship Break

I have been having problems with my boyfriend and we came to an agreement yesterday that we needed a break.

Now what happens when your not suppose to talk to the only person you truly speak to everyday?

You find things to do and you have more me time. At least that is the conclusion I came too.

I am going to rebuild friendships and start new ones. After praying for days about God’s plans for me, I feel like I should be of help and I guess he has given me this opportunity to do it.

This break has also given me some “me” time. I can focus on what “I” want. For example, I’m planning on buying some stuff to make strawberry swiss cake (I’ll post the recipe soon). I also finally ordered the book “Tuesdays with Morrie”. I also know that God is with me an he loves me and I can have more me and Him time.